"I believe in Manicures. I believe in Overdressing. I believe in Primping at leisure and wearing Lipstick. I believe that Laughing is the best calorie burner. I Believe in Kissing; Kissing a lot. I believe in Being Strong when everything else seems to be going wrong. I believe Happy Girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day, and I Believe in Miracles." Audrey Hepburn

If you have ever had a broken heart....

I wrote this in high school after having my heart shattered into a million pieces and I just found it. I enjoyed reading it again and I think it has alot of truth to it...

Don’t go looking so hard for the right guy that you miss the one you need in that search. The kind of guy you should be looking for is the one that is genuine and sincere not fake and stupid. Don’t let looks deceive you; honestly who needs a hot guy when their personality is really all that matters. I’ve been wondering why I always take a guy back; after all they‘ve actually put me through and I think it was just cause I needed someone to fall back on. I still to this day don’t know what I ever do wrong that makes guys stop liking me but I always get hurt and run back to my old guys. There is no purpose in doing this unless you really love the person. Maybe you won’t realize how much you love a person until you have to let go. . A girl and a guy can just be friends, but at one point or another they fall for each other… Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever. Never give up if you still want to try. Never wipe your tears if you still want to cry. Never settle for the answer if you still want to know. Never say you don’t like him if you can’t let him go. Love isn’t who you see yourself with; it’s who you can’t see yourself without. I’m not supposed to love you. I’m not supposed to care. I’m not supposed to live my life, wishing you were there. I’m not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do. I’m sorry I just can’t help myself; I fell in love with you. If the only possible way we can be together is in my dreams… then I will sleep forever

I'm Jumping Baby!

I was talking to a friend about love and everything being so complicated in life. He said "I wonder what would be worse? not having you at all...or enjoying you for a while and then losing you." That really hit me hard. I think sometimes in life we are scared to be ourselves or to let other people in because we are scared of getting hurt. We have been hurt in the past and that has shaken our hearts, our trust, our everything. But I think with love or anything else in life we need to take risks. We are not going to get anywhere if we don't. And yes, sometimes we may fail and sink. Or sometimes we succeed. You never know unless you take that step. I would hate to look back on my life and say "I wish" or "I could've." I want to jump, hands in the air screaming and never look back. I hate getting hurt but I don't want to lose out on something truely amazing because I am scared that I will get hurt. So baby, this is me saying, I'm jumping!

She Will Be Loved

I was playing around on itunes when I found this song that I have absolutely loved since I first heard it by Maroon 5 but now it was remade by Runner Runner. This song will always have a very special place in my heart because as ironic as it is, but I have had multiple ex boyfriends dedicate this song to me saying that it described me perfectly when I was in high school. I found it funny that the lines "Beauty queen of only eighteen, she had some trouble with herself" have always been the way people described me. I always had some guy that wanted to save me and wanted to spend every day trying to make me happy and I always pushed them away. I think that it is sad that we never see what is good for us until it is gone. I feel like I am now able to rely on myself and I know that I will be loved. I don't need anyone to catch me when I fall. But it's always nice to go back and think about life when I was younger and see the similarities and differences.

Anyways, enjoy the lyrics of one of my all time favorie songs:

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I’ve had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies
It’s compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door’s always open
You can come anytime you want

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Crazy Life

Man my life has changed so much in the last couple of months...marriage, school, work. My life was so crazy I didn't even have time to sit down and relax. I guess at the time quitting my job was an impulse. Something I have been wanting to do for a really long time but just never had a real reason to do it. Now I have all the time in the world and it feels great. It feels great to sleep in as late as I want and to do anything I want for the day. I can relax and I am happier than I have been in years. I cannot remember the last time I took time for myself. It feels really good. And yes, I have no idea what I am going to do or where I am going but it feels so good to just take time for me. I couldn't have gotten through all this without great friends and I am so thankful for them. I am so grateful to be alive and hopefully I can be me again real soon!

Just the Way You are

I heard this song on the radio the other day and it made me cry. I have always wanted a guy to feel this way about me. It's absolutely beautiful!

Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The Truth

I heard Kris Allen's new song "The Truth" on the radio on my way to work this morning and I fell in love with it. It's a really great song and I highly recommend downloading it.

The Truth

Lying next to you
Wishing I could disappear
Let you fall asleep
And vanish out into thin air

It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads
And we don't believe it

Trying to be perfect
Trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth

I still keep your photographs
I remember how we used to laugh
I can keep on losing sleep
If you're okay with being torn in half

It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads
And we don't believe it

Trying to be perfect
Trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth

Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning
And let the rain come in
Stop pretending that it's not ending
And let the end begin, oh yeah...

Trying to be perfect
Trying not to let you down
Honesty is honestly
The hardest thing for me right now, yeah
While the floors underneath our feet
Are crumbling, the walls we built together tumbling
I still stand here holding up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth
It's easier than telling the truth

Hot or Not

So the other day at work, my employees and I were all going through our phones showing old pictures of ourselves that we thought looked good (I really have no idea why we were doing this besides the fact we were bored) Anyways, I really didn't have many pictures of myself on my phone but I found one from like 3 years ago. (see above lol) So I showed it to my employees and one of them was like "Man you WERE so hot. I would have dated you back then." I was like "WAS???!!!" Anyways, so then I went home and tried to have my husband console me and he told me "Honey you're not hot anymore, you are just pretty." WHAT???!!!!! Double burn lol

She's So High

Well today I got off work early and decided to go for a run (which actually turned into a limping walk because I once again messed up my leg.) Anyways, it was such a beautiful day and on campus it was mostly dead because of the "holiday" so I just got to walk and soak in all of my thoughts. And then...my favorite song came on! I couldn't help but smile as I listened to the lyrics. I absolutely love the chorus though and I love how it builds up to it! I am so sure that anyone watching me on campus was laughing but I couldn't not dance and twirl around and sing out loud..."she's so high, high above me, she's so lovely. She's so high, like Cleopatra, Joan of Ark, or Aphrodite." I feel so free when I listen to this song and it makes me so happy! I have decided to make this my feel good song...so anytime I am having a bad day I will listen to this song and I hope it will make me feel happy again!

Headbands

So I wore a headband for the first time in like ever because I woke up like 30 minutes before I was supposed to be at work and was running super late. So I just wore my hair curly and pulled it up into a messy bun with a cutesy headband with it. I thought I looked like a little girl and felt super self conscious but I actually got more compliments than I can ever remember! So I am going to start wearing headbands more! Guess you can't write something off until you try it!