I'm Jumping Baby!

I was talking to a friend about love and everything being so complicated in life. He said "I wonder what would be worse? not having you at all...or enjoying you for a while and then losing you." That really hit me hard. I think sometimes in life we are scared to be ourselves or to let other people in because we are scared of getting hurt. We have been hurt in the past and that has shaken our hearts, our trust, our everything. But I think with love or anything else in life we need to take risks. We are not going to get anywhere if we don't. And yes, sometimes we may fail and sink. Or sometimes we succeed. You never know unless you take that step. I would hate to look back on my life and say "I wish" or "I could've." I want to jump, hands in the air screaming and never look back. I hate getting hurt but I don't want to lose out on something truely amazing because I am scared that I will get hurt. So baby, this is me saying, I'm jumping!

She Will Be Loved

I was playing around on itunes when I found this song that I have absolutely loved since I first heard it by Maroon 5 but now it was remade by Runner Runner. This song will always have a very special place in my heart because as ironic as it is, but I have had multiple ex boyfriends dedicate this song to me saying that it described me perfectly when I was in high school. I found it funny that the lines "Beauty queen of only eighteen, she had some trouble with herself" have always been the way people described me. I always had some guy that wanted to save me and wanted to spend every day trying to make me happy and I always pushed them away. I think that it is sad that we never see what is good for us until it is gone. I feel like I am now able to rely on myself and I know that I will be loved. I don't need anyone to catch me when I fall. But it's always nice to go back and think about life when I was younger and see the similarities and differences.

Anyways, enjoy the lyrics of one of my all time favorie songs:

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I’ve had you so many times but somehow
I want more

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn’t matter anymore

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies
It’s compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door’s always open
You can come anytime you want

I don’t mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls