Soundtrack in My Head

So here is the soundtrack that is running through my head right now! All great songs so I would recommend you listen to them!
1. Never Say Never by Justin Bieber and featuring Jaden Smith
2. Here With Me by Michelle Branch
3. I Believed by Melissa
4. Bleed by Hot Chelle Rae
5. (There's Gotta Be) More to Life by Stacie Orrico
6. He Don't Love You Like I Do by Daniel Bedingfield
7. Never Say Never by The Fray
8. Somebody to Love by Leighton Meester
9. Somebody to Love by Justin Bieber
10. Home by The Goo Goo Dolls
11. She is Love by Parachute
12. She's So High by Tal Bachman
13. Unbelievable (Ann Marie) by Josh Gracin
14. Stolen by Dashboard Confessional
15. Outta Here by Esmee Denters
16. Airplanes by B.O.B and Hayley Williams
17. Pocketfull of Sunshine by Natasha Bedingfield
18. Bad Romance by Lady Gaga
19. I'll be by Edwin McCain
20. Diary by Tino Coury

Sorry I know this is a long list by all these songs are just playing through my mind. They make me feel alot better after my hellish week so far!

The Pain of Good Bye

Sometimes we go about our lives thinking that things will never change and that life will go exactly as planned. We never think that we are going to have to say good bye. Life is great until you have to end a part of you that means so much to you. I never thought I'd say never...I always thought I'd fight till forever. And yet now I really think never is the reality. I know I have made mistakes and that this is all my fault but it does not make it any easier. It is killing me inside, I wish I knew why? I always thought things would be fine...I never thought I'd have to say good bye and live a life without you. But you are the one that chose to walk away, don't need to say sorry because what is done is done and now I will move on. I won't look back and I won't say it's ok. I will cry this out and be fine. I feel as though I am standing still in a crowd of people swirling past me, the world passing by and I cannot move. Everything is a blur. How did I get here? Where am I going? Who am I? I don't even know...I don't know. Who is going to save me?

Just please don't let me go...

Passion

I absolutely am in love with this picture! I wish I could take pictures with such passion in the them. It is absolutely incredible! I guess I love this picture so much because it seems as though the two have such a passion for each other. I think we all could come up with a story for the picture and sometimes that makes looking at pictures so fun. My story for this picture is that the two had to go away from each other but just couldn't stand going without one last kiss. I remember the days when you just can't get enough of the one you love. What ever happened to that passion? What ever happened to never having enough of that other person? What happened to talking all day and all night and still having so much more to talk about? What happened to wanting to spend time together? And being so in love that you can't talk about anything else? Is that love or infactuation? Whatever it is...I don't care. I just want more of it. I want to feel like nothing else matters in the world. Is that too much to ask for?

Whatever happens...happens

So I tend to be someone that always is planning my life out...to the exact minute of everyday. If I don't, I feel like my whole world will fall apart. It can be quite annoying to be honest. Why do I do this? I really have no idea. I guess I started because I had so much to do that if I didn't, I wouldn't get anything done. Now I just think it's habit. But in addition, I tend to live in the past as well. I beat myself up for the mistakes I made years ago. Why do I do that? I think I just keep thinking of myself as the high school self instead of the me that I am now. It is actually funny because in high school, I thought I was fat and stuff but now I look back and think that I really wish I could look that good again. BUT I know I need to stop thinking about the past to have a better future. I need to stop thinking about the future so much to have a better present. Most importantly, I need to follow my heart instead of just thinking with my head. I want to be happy and I need to follow what I feel more instead of analyzing every thing I do. So from now on I am going to go with whatever happens...happens

Cherish the Moment

Driving with the windows down, singing at the top of my lungs, a Lady Gaga song = pure bliss! We really should stop and take in the little moments that make us so happy. I realized today that I really just don't take the time to cherish the moments anymore. I need more days when I sing so loud that the people in the cars next to me look and I don't care! I need more times when I can run with the breeze blowing my hair and just feel like all my problems are miles away! I need to dance as though no one is watching and yeah maybe I'll make up some funny dance moves but WHO CARES??!!! I am just doing it for me! I need more days where I am relaxed and just am not trying to be perfect for anyone else but me! I need to work on being me again...that's the goal!

One Word

Isn't it funny how one word...one word can change the mood...it can change how you feel about someone or something. Love...Hate...Taken...Scared...Done...Happy...Sad...Bad...Good and on and on and on. I know that one word can change my mood. It is sad that we let just one word affect us so. It can turn us on or off something and that thing could be wonderful if we could just look past that one word...that one word that is holding us back. If we are scared of something we need to look past that to the future and to what we could have if we aren't scared and are brave instead. We shouldn't let one word change how we feel about someone or something. Look for the bright side of everything and don't give up! Please don't ever give up! Love who you want to love! Be happy about everything! Don't be scared, be brave! Don't hate! Oh and LOVE!!!!!!!

Motivation

I learn so much by just talking to people. I feel like thats all I say on this but I was talking to a friend the other day about motivation and why we are motivated or unmotivated. I think sometimes it could be because we have a passion for something. Or it could be because that is the only way we can figure out how to get through something. Why do we really care about anything? What pushes us through everything? I think for me I push myself hard when I have a passion for something. I work the hardest that I possibly can to get myself where I want to be and to live to my fullest and to just be myself. But on the other hand, with school I just see the end SO close and just to be done so I am working so hard to just finish. I am so inspired by people that work so hard to get some where great! I hope that people work the hardest they can to get them to a place where they are the happiest!

Nakita!

I just need to talk a moment to say how much I love one my best friend's Nakita! She is absolutely the strongest, most creative, funny, loyal friend I could ever ask for! She is absolutely inspiring to me and I love her lots! I can't wait to hang out with her this week!