Whatever happens...happens

So I tend to be someone that always is planning my life out...to the exact minute of everyday. If I don't, I feel like my whole world will fall apart. It can be quite annoying to be honest. Why do I do this? I really have no idea. I guess I started because I had so much to do that if I didn't, I wouldn't get anything done. Now I just think it's habit. But in addition, I tend to live in the past as well. I beat myself up for the mistakes I made years ago. Why do I do that? I think I just keep thinking of myself as the high school self instead of the me that I am now. It is actually funny because in high school, I thought I was fat and stuff but now I look back and think that I really wish I could look that good again. BUT I know I need to stop thinking about the past to have a better future. I need to stop thinking about the future so much to have a better present. Most importantly, I need to follow my heart instead of just thinking with my head. I want to be happy and I need to follow what I feel more instead of analyzing every thing I do. So from now on I am going to go with whatever happens...happens